My Life as a Drama Queen

Unstoppably follows Darkness of light Never cease to exist Nor put my torment at ease Imprisoned, in chains A fearful slave I give in myself To the rules you dictate Obscure and unmerciful You take all you need On emotions you feast I can barely resist Who can force you to leave? I know indeed That is only me Overwhelmed by the quest To release all my chains I clutch to my fears A brief consolation And quick retaliation I cannot see light I am on my own I can only confront This shadow, alone

by Olivia H. O ski school, my ski school Our time together is done, But indeed, we had fun Snow boots and skis, Down the mountain we take these Or down the yard at the very least Children are here, we hear them all Laughing, screaming and crying most of all Mommy's coming, please don't cry Or I'll have to take you inside Grab a snowball, throw it hard And cover yourself from a snow attack We scream and we fight, We hug and we laugh We stress and have fun O ski school, my ski school Big thank you I must say, For the good memories we made And the friends that will stay O ski school, my ski school We'll meet again, On a winter ahead But for now, So long and farewell"

by Olivia H. Unending sacrifice, Unlimited stress, A tight muscled spine, There's no turning back. How will I end? Is it worth the sacrifice ahead? Countless days and hours, My work stands still and quiet, Waiting for my chances, To fulfill my task in silence. Obliged, I return To focus once more. Endless nights, f orever writing, I own you! it yells to frighten. Brain ignited, wrecked core, Consumed by such load. I beg stop! I can do no more. Meaningless shot, after all. The never-ending course, Won’t let me move on. Inspiration, just a glimpse, Pulls me from my mind. Barely a moment, Soon to be gone. Back to my mind, Sleep for the night.

by Olivia H. You think you know, You think you care. As true as it may be, You're not there to see. I know how it feels I know how it's been Be damn sure I know, Mr. Know-it-all. So old and wise, While I'm just a child. Lost in the wild, Lost in the dark. Watch the child!  So l ittle and young, Naïve and blunt Please, open your mind You may understand This child can be wild, Or lost, but in charge. Don’t push me down Cause I won’t take it I know what to do No need to unsettle Give me a chance! I can be smart, I can be bright. I know that..... I can.

by Olivia H. I seek sleep but will not find it I need oblivion as thoughts won't go Late at night, I cannot stand it! I wish for sleep and silence Too many questions, doubts and answers For dreamland to make me slumber I wish not to remember Though seem to think forever Distraction will not do To sleep away  Far from memories Close your eyes, just today Be at peace again Tomorrow is another day To find yourself again So sleep and let go For dreams await

by O. Hiba In and out In and out Can’t hold it down No matter what I do You are always there Waiting while I bear This constant feeling of despair Desperate to try it all Why did I surrender before? If only I'd loved myself more But I am broken to react How much longer can I bear This constant feeling of despair On every day and night You take from my life Now all there is left Is to live as it is And bear all of it The misery inside me

by O. Hiba What do you want? What do you need? I cannot tell I just feel defeat Am I good? Am I bad? Am I enough?  Many doubts Too many to keep up A no here and there Little it takes To take down my strength Enough is enough But I’m not enough Then who am I? What can I do? Then when I try I’m never that good If I die all alone Then no one will know I’m not all that good A fake for the show I’m not enough Enough to fulfill All that you thought That I could have been If only I knew If only I dared But deep down I know I don’t really care But I wish I was there With the stars shining fair Am I enough? I don’t know I don’t care Maybe somewhere I can be enough there

by Olivia H. I am that, I am I am the roots in the land The sun shining wide I am love The water that flows The sounds of my soul I am what I see I am the spirit That lives in me. I am that, I am